I’m burning all my thoughts of you,
What I thought you were,
With so many girls,
I’m surprised you don’t get confused,
Now all my questions are answered,
All the mystery has faded,
And left shameful you,
Where’s the guilt, where’s the regret?
You think you’re fulfilling every girl’s fantasy,
Well you never really meant that much to me.

You realize the things you need too late,
And I walked away from the best,
Couldn’t stand being so blissful,
Now my regrets have grown too big,
I can’t see past your face,
You’ve become more gorgeous than I could have imagined,
Your love was unconditional,
I ruined the trust you invested in me,
I’m not asking for a second chance, I’m begging,
I won’t lose you this round,
If only there was a way to show you how deep my repentance runs,
If I had a second chance I would never do those things to you,
You mean too much to me to just forget,
How many more years will you make me wait?

I guess i've been writing too many I can't finish lately! Sorry they're so short!

I was addicted to your desperate kisses,
I left you stranded on an island of thought,
I’m not for everyone,
I don’t agree with your guilty lies,
An empty defense,
I don’t hear what you’re saying, all I hear is their names,
I found a way to let you go, painlessly, effortlessly,
I know I’ll never need someone like you to weigh me down,
Push me around,You thought you could.

Come to me now,
Break this lull,
Chase my boredom away,
I came this far to find,
What you’d foreseen I’d be missing,
But I’ve got all this time,
Send me an end to these empty days,
Don’t be so hard on me,
If after 5 long years,
How can you say,
You don’t still love me the same way,
to you I’m a long lost dream,
You won’t have anymore,
Did I turn you off the last time I spoke my mind,
I panicked when I felt the space you were introducing,
Is there still a shred of me somewhere in your memory?
I won’t take you for granted.

He takes her by the hand,
She says softly I’ve done it again,
And he forgives and he relives,
Every time his heart breaks,
Still he’s trying to keep her smiling,
While she’s tripping over her mistakes,
he’s embracing thoughts of her waking up next to him,
when she comes around, she repents aloud,
slowly he deconstructs.

Somebody told me to stop
I’m a dreamer, nothing is real in my head,
I saw the end, saw it fade out and die,
I’ve got nothing to hide,
But you swear I’m wrong,
I found the trigger, a reason to leave you,
Now emptiness awaits,
It’s bright where I am,
Steady on my feet where I stand,
I’m going to chase down the sunset,
Blot out your face from my memory,
You’re almost a blank page now,
I’m grateful, I’ve been to proud to admit,
Maybe you had me by the hair,
But I wanted it,
You shared with everyone what I thought was ours,
Somehow I knew you weren’t that simple,
I had you captured, but you had me caught in a game,
I never felt the way I portrayed.

We have good days,
We have bad days,
Sometimes I wish I never knew you,
Wouldn’t have to wonder why you never call,
Why you never extend an invitation my way,
You’re untraditional,
And selfish, it’s on your circumstances,
I’m always lending myself out to you,
Giving you everything I wish you’d return,
With no prevail, I’m still lost here,
Where’s the trust, where’s the truth,
It doesn’t mean anything,
You shut all signs of visible emotions out,
I take the wear of your weight crushing me,
Your pretentious persona,
And my inability to turn away.

In this haven that I’ve built,
Grown to hate,
This nothing my life’s accumulated to,
I feel like there’s so much more,
I just can’t reach it,
But I’m on the edge of discovery,
The people along the ride,
Have failed to surprise me,
I can’t understand, why they act the way they are,
There’s so many people I should be,
But I don’t have the voice, the looks, the talent,
Nothing comes to those who sit and wait,
But what else can I do?

I’m happy where we are,
Not anything, no reason to commit,
Cause you make me laugh, I feel complete when I’m with you,
if I lost you tomorrow, I’d be fine knowing what there is to life,
I won’t cry if we go our own separate ways,
No jealousy, no strings to pull apart,
just you and me holding each other together,
you’re keeping me alive until the next,
we’re not missing out, kuz I got you,
I couldn’t have found anyone better to occupy my time,
Who we are when we’re in our company,
I’ve never had so much fun just talking.

Sitting here alone,
Not by the phone,
Kuz I know you won’t call,
No I know you,
You think you know me,
You think I don’t mind,
But lately i’ve had too much time,
You were growing so close,
To what I thought might be,
No it could never be,
It’s not even lust,
It’s just us,
We’re messed up and confused,
We’re ignorant and misused,
No it’s not right,
But it feels right,
Some nights,
Seems I’m battling with myself,
Who else fights for your attention?
I’m not your only,
Life gets lonely,
I want you here to hold me,
But I don’t think you can handle that much,
I’m giving up my grip,
I’m ready to let you slip,
I don’t feel like I did in the beginning,
Waiting, never winning,
barely living,
the end is ahead,
can’t believe the lines you’ve fed,
no longer misled.

Just as I was becoming okay with the situation...
What I gave,
You took away,
You don’t ask and you don’t say,
just leave without saying goodbye,
should I have the right to know?
what you’ve taken was mine,
it’s a vital part of me still,
you’ve seen my insides bleed,
and you’ve watched the pain pour from my eyes,
seen how this can tear me apart,
but you’ve gone and dug at this empty hole,
just when the normality started to settle,
you break the ease in my loss,
stolen closure,
images littered to remind me,
what I’ll never find again.

This pretend game,
With you and me,
Acting like we’re something,
But you could never put forth what it takes to be committed,
Even though I wish you would,
Say it say it, you want only me,
Romantic ideals appear but vanish quickly,
When reality hits,
It happens solely in movies,
Why can’t my life turn out that way?
One day I hope you’re ready,
If not for me, she better deserve it,
You might come around after it’s too late,
After I’ve long given up on you,
It’s the way karma runs,
I might play a fool for you now,
But this dreaded love can’t last,
It’s probably just made up in my head,
If you don’t love me yet, there’s not much that could change,
I am what’s set before you,
How unexciting unfolded,
Could you walk awhile in my dreams,
Tell me things you can’t say aloud.

Days gone by
And you’ve dissipated
I’m starting to think you might be dead,
No sign of life from where I left you last,
Is the tumor in your head erupting,
Finally karma catching up,
Twist with a nail in your side,
One situation you can’t hide from,
All your secrets spill,
I know what you’ve been keeping,
Try to cover your tracks,
But in the end they always find out,
Have you been honest all this time,
Are you worth the worry?
Persuade me,
Show me you’re worth this wondering,
And live up to your mystery?

i’ve seen a new perspective,
and I don’t need you like I thought I might,
I take all I can get from you,
But it’s never enough,
You’re never willing to give more,
So why should I wait and hope
someday you’ll be mine,
you’ll always be the same,
I can’t rely on you,
you have a way of disappearing,
it’s the idea of you I love,
but not who you are and how you make me feel,
I don’t think I care as much as I should,
You’ll never be able to commit to anything,
If you were mad about me I’d know it,
But I don’t think you give a damn,
How many girls like me are you stringing along?

I’ll let you sleep on it,
Think about my kiss when it’s not available,
You can't hold me when I’m not around,
So count your lonely days without me,
Before you call me,
This is how it feels to never have me,
Can you live like that?
Is it easy enough?
I don’t want to be at your disposal any time you need,
But you’re never at mine,
I can’t put myself out there,
If you don’t want me like I want you,
These nights where you’re nowhere found,
I keep my composure, I’m fine staying home alone,

i don't know why i,
can look you in the eye and tell myself that this is okay,
when you don't try and you don't care,
so why should i?
do i even still?
am i just wasting time?
have you realized?
are your intentions just fantasized,
shouldn't you be scared since you lost me before.
it doesn't matter now.
you're out for deviation,
i'm searching for an easy separation,
letting you fall behind.
i'm making connections to rise above.

I think about you so much,
Wonder what if I did that, what if I said that,
Would things have ended up differently,
Would I still have a place with you?
You look so good to me now,
I can’t have you,
How many second chances did I blow?
How can I get back to the days,
Where you and I existed,
I miss the happy person I was with you.

You’re so contradicting
As soon as I think you’re coming around,
You’re a sharp curve away from a loaded gun,
I can’t give you up in case you turn into what I’ve foreseen,
But if it never happens, I’ve been wasting time I can’t get back,
Losing someone who would have been best for me,
Do I take the chance? I don’t want to leave empty handed,
I’m ready to give so much, is it worth it to lose it all to you,
exchanged for nothing.

i've been trying to sleep,
but these visions of you keep getting in my head,
getting in the way.
i'm doing all i can to keep it inside,
thought i was through with everything you.
Discarded the past, now you're invading the present,
bringing those feelings back i never wanted,
i know better than to say it out loud.
everyone disagrees, everyone sees through your facade.
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isn't this the same way we end up?
i'm waiting by the phone with no hope you'll pull through,
gloomy reality.
simple things mean the most,
how little effort it takes to do what you say,
i'm fed up, it's growing tired, this repetition,
how could i have expected that you've changed.

every time i seem to get too far from you,
you're there, ready to be my everything,
still you struggle with something i can't see,
you don't know the right way to treat me,
i know in some way you care, kuz you hold on,
i get so frustrated kuz i can't figure you out, you can be so cold sometimes,
i just don't know what to do about you,
should i leave, should i keep you with me?
which way is it meant to be?
wish i knew what it would take for you to be what i need for me.