Liann's on her way here at this very moment, it will be a very chaotic, fun week!!

sound is still,
the echo of your voice,
fills the silence,
entertains and enhances thoughts of you,
striking me strongly,
tears contained,
stain these cheeks,
knowing your internal aches,
wanting to wash them away,
make you endlessly happy,
undo the pain you've kept inside,
how long has it been?
weeping,
wanting to bridge this gaping hole,
present in your gentle heart,
is my love not enough?
not the right one?
why can't you let me,
under your skin,
so i can try to be,
everything you'll ever need,
summon all the bright days,
that are long overdue,
you lock everything inside,
it's all you've known how to do.

~*~

trying to sort through all these things,
discovering where you fit into the picture,
you're all that's inhabiting my mind,
feeling helpless, there's nothing i can do,
to make this any clearer,
the intensity between us,
stings me deep, every moment,
you're not near, i need you,
sun sign rings true,
i wonder if you're the one,
that's come to make me whole,
do you still abide his wishes?
i'll never understand,
what this pounding in my blood means,
everytime you're here it comes rushing back again,
your scent stayed with me for days,
now i just feel lifeless,
everything's going right,
but you're still missing.

~*~

Have you heard,
one damn word i've said?
it's easy for me to say,
"i don't need you, i never did"
fooled myself into thinking,
i could count on you,
i'm tired of getting nowhere,
waiting while you procrastinate,
live on without me,
i won't settle for seconds,
coming to reach me when you find the time,
i'll never let you get the best of me,
search for somebody else,
you won't find the love in my heart,
my patience retired yesterday,
if you come looking for me,
i won't be here for you anymore,
it's too late and it's too bad,
you weren't worth the tears i'd shed,
i refuse to cry over you,
it's so sad to find a man,
who doesn't know to treat a woman,
it's never been that hard to please me,
but broken promises won't win me over,
i wish i could say i never cared for you,
i'm almost there.

~*~

There's something I want to ask you...
Are you happy?
I've been wanting to tell you,
the thing that hurts most about not being with you:
knowing you deserve so much and not being able to give it to you,
You should know,
no matter what we are,
friends or lovers,
i'll always care,
deeply,
for you,
how much?
it kills me.