i can't see outside,
the sky is burning,
i'm finding easy ways to hide,
from the madness i live in,
all the feelings i have forced myself to find,
if you like it, you won't be the only one,
i've found all this time,
i can't decide how it should be spent,
it's not best for me, but it works for you,
i grin and go along,
i came here to find a piece of mine,
something i can belong to,
your stories are always shorter,
damn your logic, and sensible ideas,
my unconventional selection,
you're staying much longer than i'm accustomed to,
where is this leading, what does this mean?
does it even mean anything?
for a straying heart to grow strong,
it's funny to want what i denied endlessly,
what i never saw has blinded me incredulously.

The first version is always better,
your rough edges make you beautiful,
i cross the dividing line,
between peace and insanity,
trying to read your mind,
a death defied, my questions why,
your heart wrenching reply,
the fear you instill in me,
the possibility that i might actually lose you,
i don't feel the separation,
until i hear your name,
i'll shut you out as long as we're away,
i heard your voice on my pillow,
a whispering i could not ignore,
do i have your reasoning right?
i'd take the train to see you sleep,
listen to you breathe quietly and so slowly,
i might die if this is it,
i haven't found another with a touch like yours.

I miss you most when I’m home,
Every moment I find myself alone,
When I’m seething inside,
When I have no place to run and hide,
I force thoughts of you away,
The feelings that arise, I won’t let stay,
Won’t let myself fall weak to you,
Like I seem to,
How you get by fine without me,
But I can’t do the same,
Appetite never quite fulfilled,
Leaving me constantly craving more,
Panicked as you dance around settling down,
Will you ever be ready?
Is this as close as I’ll ever come?
Everything that’s important,
Anything that matters I’ve found in you.