This latest one is a bit of a mish-mash that has been slowly accumulating on a sticky note!

My life has had its ass kicked.
It is incredible my lungs are still working.
that they didn't suffocate by the blood filling
my cavernous insides.

all this contextual meaning.
I abhor your contradictory character.
feigning interest until vanished,
what happened to enlightening honesty?
secret condescension
unaware until it sinks in and i feel the sting.
you can't say what i see is wrong, when it is lain out on the table.
please spare me the clarity,
lies spat clothed as viable excuses,
you're the fool remember.
fading into the walls.
it is a shame you are exactly the same shade.

I would prefer vitriolic indemnification
to this barren indolence you have given me.

i am the violin,
i just want to be rocked in your arms,
to be soothed by your song.