for my Lex.
do you remember me?
how long will i stay with you?
there's a gaping hole that i've imparted,
why haven't you come back to me?
are your memories of late so great, ours have been replaced?
do you miss me?
will we grow further apart?
what we had makes me so sad kuz i'll never find another you.
i will never feel at ease even though i know you're happy.
you didn't look back when you left for the last time.
i tried to be strong, going on, but i've never felt so wrong.
every night i reunite with the past, i want to go back.
there was no bright sunlight like you illuminated my life,
now i am truly alone.
i don't care about anything that remains.

why is it so hard to find?
i'm taking on all your problems.
bound to pity, i feel guilty.
i try too hard to take the weight.
no one deserves to be unfortunate.
why does it happen?
what can i do?
i can't save anyone.

where it stands.
i'm not worried about you.
not caught up in your business anymore,
curious how you think i feel,
if you still sit high on a cloud of conceit,
it's hard to come down once you get there,
maybe your brain will burst,
did i find you too absorbed, all wrapped up in yourself?
yeah it's sickening,
how could i put up with you.
mistook the attention for your affection,
you only fancy yourself.
put me down if i start to sound better than you.
it can't be true!
hard to face the truth isn't it?

haha new shit here it is.
with each passing opportunity,
it always gets easier,
finally someone sees me for what i am,
no expectations,
1 day passed slowly,
even though it's not for me,
it's still nice know,
it's good to hear these things,
such little details make the biggest differences,
seek me out, if you can find me i might change my mind,
although i know nothing about you,
how can you make such a rash judgement?
my mind's in 10 million places,
here i go overthinking again,
i don't want the same old situation,
i could do without.