Desperate to seek the truth,
Imagining you showing up at my door,
Take me in your arms,
Tell me you’ve loved only me,
Always me,
She was just a summer fling,
While you were waiting for my return,
If you knew I was a sure thing,
Would you run back to me?
I’m so mad at myself,
For hesitating an eternity,
What could I say to convince you,
That it should be us, not you and her,
Do I still reign in your heart?
Do you shut her out kuz I taught you to?
I can’t stop my brain from ticking,
Funny how when I ask what’s new,
You don’t mention her existence,
Do you think I’d already know?
how would i?
how long has it been?
No wonder you’ve been so preoccupied,
I guess my sneaking suspicion was right.
I hate knowing, I hate thinking of the two of you,
And what we could have had.
Maybe you’ll miss me too much to stay apart.
You were my everything for many years,
My safety net, incase I tripped over my life,
Now I’m headed backwards at 100 miles per hour,
And you wouldn’t know it.
Call me a home wrecker, I’ve come to claim what’s mine.

I always figured I’d end up with you,
I had no idea our ending would come so soon,
She can’t replace the years we spent,
The impact it takes to fall in love,
It’s hard to imagine you with anyone,
Has she taken over the way you felt for me?
The light in your eye when I enter the room,
It hasn’t changed,
Would you believe me if I told you?
Would you even care?
what if I don’t let you get away?
I’m trying hard to keep it locked inside,
But I’m trembling and weighted down,
I don’t want to move,
Just stare at nothing,
Waiting for the ache to wash over me,
I can’t believe my misfortune,
How could I not foresee the irony?
I’m listening to the same songs you held me to,
One summer too short,
I was so happy when I came to my conclusion,
To put an end to our miserable separation,
Now I’m just lost in sorrowful confusion,
Singing myself to tears,
I have a list of songs I’d dedicate to you,
If you would hear me out,
Maybe hearing my voice would make you remember why I meant so much,
Do you notice my heavy footsteps in your dreams,
Making a scene, so you think of me,
Whispering my name to your mind,
"Get up and leave,
You don’t have to wait any longer,
So come on and capture me,"
i’m in so deep there’s no hope for sleep,
you better rescue me,
i'm counting on you.

my body's tired,
still I can't sleep,
All in my head I see her face,
Smitten with what she’s got,
She’d never realize how it was mine,
Why do I keep losing you?
I know where I’ve gone wrong,
We overcame, so why am I sitting here now?
You didn’t want me, you said it once,
As you held my hands across the table,
How could I resist,
How have I held strong this long?
Now it’s all tumbling to pieces,
Now this confession seems meaningless,
If you’ve got something good,
why so surprised to see me?
Wouldn’t you have thought I’d miss you?
I’ve reminded you a thousand times,
I let it slip,
I feel so hollow and swollen,
I’m the one to blame,
But what could I do?
you would have stayed if you wanted to.

Haven’t felt like this in a long time,
Hadn’t heard of the destroyer,
I’m lying on the ground,
I can’t reach my feet,
Every part of me is broken,
I’ve been deserted,
Deadly desolation,
But you’ve got other things to worry about,
The confusion rips me apart,
This artificial happiness,
I’ve been faking,
No one can save me from my sins,
I’ve worked for redemption,
But never hard enough,
Worn through, my love for you is worthless,
How could it have been so easy?
Malicious truth to kill,
All the hope I buried alive,
The first to flee,
the first to fall,
the last to lose this love for you,
so unwilling to replace,
what took me years to find,
haunting exhilaration,
thrilled to finally find,
a century too late.

Wow, talk about bad timing.. ........

Somehow I already knew,
But I refused to believe it,
But I can’t deny your obligations,
Kuz you can’t love me like you used to,
Now that I need you,
You’ve got somebody new,
All the thoughts of us dried and decayed,
Could she be a substitute, holding my place?
I can’t erase the signs of excitement shown on your face,
When we met again in a new light,
cut deep, it caught me by the throat,
I knew by the time I felt sure, you’d be gone,
And I bet she’d never do you like I did,
I’m paying for my mistakes,
the hurt wanting you, but I can never have you,
Can I recover?
Keep it hidden,
So you will never know,
Why must fate choose for me to be alone?
Could you not leave her since I’ve always been the one?
And all those beautiful revelations were lies,
Building me up, to break me,
I can’t say these words,
There’s no “our ever after,”
I swear I mean forever this time,
I know you’ve been here before,
And I will die by your feet,