Would you still care
If our goodbyes were said yesterday
I can promise you this time
If I show you how remorse fills my veins
And how the darkness enfolds me
Would it change your mind
I’m tripping into every black hole
You choose to disregard what you see of me,
This lengthy despair you’ve set in stone,
I can’t evade,
But are you unguarded inside?
Do I break right through?
Do you stand by those fierce words you preach?
Why has everything evolved around you,
Swallowing my world and displacing it with your own,
I can’t elude your soft face and playful smile,
It’s the worst thing for me,
I’ll never heal without you.

I hate to admit,
And it’s gone but I still need it,
The lyrics describe it seamlessly,
“Our love was comfortable and so broken in”,
you never said you didn’t still feel the same,
I’m too afraid to ask,
Why am I dwelling on the chance?
I should have moved on,
But I’m certainly unsure,
I wish it wasn’t so calloused,
This art I’ve created,
Of losing and then penitence,
Initiation is a task you avoid altogether,
I’ll let you go as soon as my loneliness subsides.

Slowly burning in my own hell,
Wish I had someone to assist in my escape,
The future is dim and littered with contusions,
All the good is beyond many sunsets,
Never nearing the ending,
Reminders of my useless absorption,
How it looks from the outside,
Avarice, an understatement,
My every want is handed to me with no complication,
This isn’t me,
Circumstances are essential,
An unfair affair,
Guilt overwhelms me,
Seeing the likes of repentance for ridiculous matters,
Why generate shame for every object bestowed to me,
Such a burden I’ve suddenly become,
An unjust judgment to which I am indignant.

all i feel,
i am hollowed,
an empty vessel set out to find you,
what's taking so long?
a regression to the beginning,
sometimes it's hard to take the truth,
another loss to suffer through,
i'd like to think my luck's finally changing,
but still the same scenery seen,
bring back vitality from it's long hibernation,
falling into the extent of only endings,
the outlook isn't promising.

what made you say those things,
so out of the blue,
while you chase the room,
staring at your own reflection,
and all the pretty faces,
how am i supposed to take you seriously?
you & your wandering eyes,
i see you for what you really are,
so please stop trying,
the effort is a waste of your precious time,
it's to what you're bound by blood that i adore,
perilously poised,
you think your charm cannot be resisted,
an explanation you waited too long to release,
why now?
your sudden delayed honesty,
i sense you know better,
you pursue what you find,
naive vulnerability,
assured you can steal a weakened heart,
you appear to hold so much wreckage,
i don't know the truth to your character,
why do you act as you do,
following what loathed you've grown used to,
where's your will to change?