I learn so much from your misfortune,
you're always trying to do the right thing,
maybe this time will be different,
you control your own happiness,
so choose your battles wisely,
your strength radiates,
no matter how soft you seem on the outside,
I absorb your decisions,
my watchful eye,
while he serves you vilification,
I'm seething in my skin,
I hope you'll be care free,
and find the arms you need,
ones to hold you high,
love you unconditionally,
you come with such a heavy heart.

words come so easy,
when communicating with you,
how do I act when i'm standing before you?
sometimes, I feel affinity with your wreckless ways,
mistakes I make wondering if you'll catch on,
how I worry i'd displease you,
notions I may invent,
to find you reaching out for me,
insinuate what thoughts lay poisoning my mind,
you crept up on me unexpectedly,
discerning the rules you'd bend for me.

Can I let a little lust escape?
suppression always backfires,
into the face of the beholder,
aligned with your eyes, I read what's written,
I believed I belonged with all the others,
what's intended, tell me your objective,
do you hide it well?
conclusion hasn't changed,
make me a martyr,
make innocence fade,
worth working for,
seeing light in darker things,
a sight i've discovered,
addition to your appeal,
resounding,
how could I tell if there's more to your story,
discrepancy,
transition from lonely,
a clause in motion,
maybe you'll meander with me

in my veins,
the smoke invades,
catches in my throat,
a covered get away,
with your back pressed against me,
folding and collapsing,
we're breathing and laughing,
pretend that I don't see disaster following,
allow wind to lift my regrets,
uncover insecurities,
aware of your dispositionm
still I ensued, breaking caution without heed,
take me eagerly,
one simple word swelling in meaning,
inhabit your reaction,
mirrored with my own,
steer myself from treason,
this dignity I fake.

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Let it bleed,
fall to your knees,
beggars dishonesty,
the sharp blade of allure,
calling out to be captured.

wishing that you were nothing,
that I didn't care,
I could be weightless,
your touch is crushing,
you kiss could kill,
it's better to remain detached,
curiosity may deter me,
from paths I chose,
needing, knowing the strength you steal,
wrap me in safely,
so he cannot harm,
beginning ignorance,
never leave me empty, lost,
or without your arms to fasten me,
convalesce from your lashing tongue.

Left, like an open window,
unattended with thoughts of you,
where they travel, a forbidden place,
tell me your purpose for being here.
If there's a reason, set me upon it,
let it shake the ground,
in wondering, will my time ever arise?
an endless pause,
sigh in frustration,
all these actions missing attraction,
unanswered pleas,
i'd rather believe you can't read me,
how blantant in my sinful subtleties,
much to prove,
allure you in a surreptitious manner,
wanting what's never attained,
to create truth from impossibility,
we must have skipped the chase.

This one isn't finished!

Every time I find the strength to ensue the ending,
You hunt me down and drag me back,
When will permanency replace this shaking wall,
I’ve been building between us,
Where I can sleep,
Memories only make me weak,
when the room empties, isolation finds you,
reel me in, you know I’m willing
lay under the knife while you take what you need,
just enough to satisfy until another,
this repetitious repression,
every time my feet leave the ground,
you fracture my wings to keep me captive.

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