Time takes away the drops of a long forgotten day.

Weightless, with all my unimaginable thoughts,
So I still alone,
My life’s a mundane dream,
Standing to be corrected for my misperceived perception,
The mounting ardour becomes apparent in your sights,
A sigh and one whisper that fades,
“can we restore these memories”,
you said it but the words were mine,
stunned, a dishevelled you, knew I put those words in your mouth,
recollecting, you deemed me worthy of repute,
decline the opposition, greet me with defeat,
easily able to resist, why am I here,
a victim of misconstrue, you had me,
though I recognized your ploy for confusion,
I played along, held blind by my affection,
Haven’t grasped the relation between your words and convergence,
So sundry, with discrete emotion elasticity,
The innocent honest intentions, exist evidently,
Repetitious as I relish preceding days.

Silence. An empty mind makes life easy. I can't believe it's snowing.

I ran to escape,
screaming from inside out,
I resent you,
i'm laying it before you,
the icy truth,
if you ever told me,
"I just want you to be happy"
your selfish ignorance lit up the sky,
you're unraveling, peeling everyday,
revealing how little of you there is left,
was it me who set you off?

I'm going home tomorrow, I need a break from all the craziness here in Oakville. I've been thinking too much again.

Hey,
How long must I live on knowing,
i'm running into nothing,
falling, headfirst,
pushing, only ending up right at the beginning,
when I lost you,
I felt the crushing of my insides,
even though I might indulge in your arms,
I can't stay there forever,
the indigo takes over,
I disappear with the rising sun,
somehow I can't manage a simple goodbye,
the words get caught in my throat,
I can't kill my love for you,
no matter how many holes I drive through it,
any logical thoughts are scarce,
you pull farther away,
I always told you exactly how I felt,
you couldn't say it just once,
i'm endlessly asking for too much,

the complications are too big,
there's nothing I can say to make you stay,
you've already walked away,
how will I forget you
~*~

I looked up,
in the clouds i saw,
one familiar fall night,
you and i entangled,
moments cut short,
i was high off the addiction to your lips,
and the rising heat,
and i descended deeper,
how did it progress to this plateau?
you see through my transparency,
how much of a fool i've become for you,
i can't rest until we pursue this further,
but would you give in?
my jaw dropped at the sound,
contagious are those scenes,
face to face we lay,
i prayed that your actions were real,
watched the light creep across the floor,
i asked you not to let me go,
maybe you forgot,
there's still this flooding feeling,
never runs dry.

It's crazy how a simple feeling can put so much in perspective.

If i asked you how you felt,
would you avoid the question?
what are you scared of?
what answer would i expect?
you'd be the first i'd run to,
i'd confide in you a mass of secrets,
ignoring the inevitable,
I won't accept the looming impossibility,
if all we have is tonight,
i'd pause the world for an eternity,
and love you until the end,

I don't want to believe,
i'm the only one who feels this way,

seems as though i've been waiting out losing you for good,

I can't bear it,
how close are we to something?

will i clench my fists,
and shut my eyes,
to the sound of my breaking heart?

this time i loved for all the right reasons.

Nothing's going on, my poems seem to have transformed into loose thoughts gathered together that don't really sound pretty anymore. It's kind of sad.
I think i'm forcing things out that aren't there.

The words I want to say,
could drive you away,
yet they remain,
demanding to be released,
is there a possibility,
you might share this immense intensity,
it's getting hard to pretend,
these feelings aren't tearing at my insides,
struggling to pry themselves out,
how can this be fair,
we act like friends,
but so much more lies behind,
itching to be unleashed,
while you're dreaming of fame,
i'm dreaming of your kiss,
and all the things it would bring.