I am so cold sometimes,
I can’t love myself enough to fill the void,
I need to just be,
I’ll show you the empty side of me,
Everything I wanted is gone,
For you and me,
I think it’s too late,
To reshape what I have become,
i’m sorry it wasn’t what you wished it would be,
we all agree,
it was right to walk away,
I’ve been telling you the whole time,
Don’t run me down,
with what mess remains,
don’t fall pray to his pleas,
they rest with all his unfulfilled promises,
sometimes pain is better on the outside,
I’m drinking mine down,
He ruined a city for me,
Too harrowing to pass places sated with memories,
Why were our walls meant to crumble?
Why was it best to flee?
Left me with questions,
I’m not at ease,
Unless I’m feeling heartache,
What’s it like to live without?
I wouldn’t trade you to know.

Don’t underestimate my perception,
It’s painfully obvious,
How you’re putting it on,
Attempting to convince yourself,
Things will work themselves out,
The love has died,
Did it ever exist at all?
you keep dragging yourself along,
The undertow is heavy and it’s winning,
Your painted smile isn’t fooling anybody anymore,
The root of my skewed vision,
Can be traced to the bad decisions you believe in,
the longer you suffocate, the more you harden me,
I can't see the world the same,
Everyone's become an enemy out to damage me,
Sewn deep in my psyche,
There's no chance in hell i'll ever break free.
While your life falls apart, you lean on me,
it's impeding without reliance,
constructing an unwilling cynic,
with all this animosity I hold onto,
I hate the change i'm forced into.