We meet again.
After so long,
all the shit I put you through,
I stand before you, ashamed and in remorse,
what can I give you,
to make up for the implemented dissension,
I should have kept you safe,
loved with you all the will inside,
i'm days away,
inundated in our history,
you only wished me well,
I delivered a hushed farwell,
untimely tears,
the affect that unsettles my soul,
my destruction of a beautiful thing,
could I ever prevail in the war over your affection,
would it be the same,
i'm still blazing in your ambiance,
will you set me straight,
what you'll take from me.

Everytime I try,
you make it harder on me,
as if my guilt didn't kill enough,
your words come back to haunt me,
I drown you with kindness,
and you strangle me with contempt,
if only you would understand,
what you've been to me,
I love who you used to be,
I deserve a thousand lashes,
but I was blind to your suffering,
you'll never allow me to forget,
confuse me when you speak of reuniting,
how did those pretty thoughts vanish so quickly,
my actions, so childish as I fled and pushed you away,
now that the ugly's gone,
I remember only the beautiful,
and how deep it ran for me,
you became the victim of my cruel hands,
i've never wanted anything more,
than to take back my deviance and mend your wounded heart,
if only there were a way,
i'm so sorry, I should have stayed.

I almost had myself fooled back into thinking,
you're what I wanted,
but deception reminded me,
your honesty never meant that much,
I can be weak if I choose,
your guidance led me to disaster,
but you always wanted me to take your place,
turned out to be a momentary lapse,
swung and left the door open,
my steps embraced the border,
heard my feet race like thunder,
ran to shut me out tight,
yet you look upon me,
pressed against the glass,
begging with your eyes to crack the silence,
waiting for me to witness your change,
pleading me to react,
defending my pride with jealousy's ample gun,
what warped conclusion have you drawn out for me.