8.24.2004

I’m burning all my thoughts of you,
What I thought you were,
With so many girls,
I’m surprised you don’t get confused,
Now all my questions are answered,
All the mystery has faded,
And left shameful you,
Where’s the guilt, where’s the regret?
You think you’re fulfilling every girl’s fantasy,
Well you never really meant that much to me.
You realize the things you need too late,
And I walked away from the best,
Couldn’t stand being so blissful,
Now my regrets have grown too big,
I can’t see past your face,
You’ve become more gorgeous than I could have imagined,
Your love was unconditional,
I ruined the trust you invested in me,
I’m not asking for a second chance, I’m begging,
I won’t lose you this round,
If only there was a way to show you how deep my repentance runs,
If I had a second chance I would never do those things to you,
You mean too much to me to just forget,
How many more years will you make me wait?
I guess i've been writing too many I can't finish lately! Sorry they're so short!

I was addicted to your desperate kisses,
I left you stranded on an island of thought,
I’m not for everyone,
I don’t agree with your guilty lies,
An empty defense,
I don’t hear what you’re saying, all I hear is their names,
I found a way to let you go, painlessly, effortlessly,
I know I’ll never need someone like you to weigh me down,
Push me around,You thought you could.
Come to me now,
Break this lull,
Chase my boredom away,
I came this far to find,
What you’d foreseen I’d be missing,
But I’ve got all this time,
Send me an end to these empty days,
Don’t be so hard on me,
If after 5 long years,
How can you say,
You don’t still love me the same way,
to you I’m a long lost dream,
You won’t have anymore,
Did I turn you off the last time I spoke my mind,
I panicked when I felt the space you were introducing,
Is there still a shred of me somewhere in your memory?
I won’t take you for granted.
He takes her by the hand,
She says softly I’ve done it again,
And he forgives and he relives,
Every time his heart breaks,
Still he’s trying to keep her smiling,
While she’s tripping over her mistakes,
he’s embracing thoughts of her waking up next to him,
when she comes around, she repents aloud,
slowly he deconstructs.
Somebody told me to stop
I’m a dreamer, nothing is real in my head,
I saw the end, saw it fade out and die,
I’ve got nothing to hide,
But you swear I’m wrong,
I found the trigger, a reason to leave you,
Now emptiness awaits,
It’s bright where I am,
Steady on my feet where I stand,
I’m going to chase down the sunset,
Blot out your face from my memory,
You’re almost a blank page now,
I’m grateful, I’ve been to proud to admit,
Maybe you had me by the hair,
But I wanted it,
You shared with everyone what I thought was ours,
Somehow I knew you weren’t that simple,
I had you captured, but you had me caught in a game,
I never felt the way I portrayed.