You’re always so hot and cold,
I know I should just put you behind me,
I’d be better off that way,
But it’s so hard when you want it so much,
I think I’m falling further away,
you look so small from where I’m standing,
the distance is growing,
I can’t help but blame myself,
Wondering what I’m doing wrong,
But I know it’s all you,
You just don’t see what you used to,
I’ve worn my welcome with you,
I should stop running from reality,
To face truth that you weren’t meant for me,
But you come around just when I’m getting over you,
You suck me back in and I give in,
I curse myself for being so weak,
But one day, it will be too late,
And I won’t greet you the same way anymore.
Would that make you happy,
Could you live without me in your life?
Knowing I would never crawl back to you,
I hope you’re ready, cause that day is coming soon

I can sing with sorrow,
And would you recognize it?
I sense a change coming,
But it’s in me,
I thought you would make things better,
I thought you could make it go away,
But you just don’t care about anything,
what changed after me?
There’s no sense of ease between us,
I’ll accept the blame,
I didn’t mean to leave,
Why aren’t you trying harder to win me back?
It’s taking far too long,
I feel like i’m at wit’s end,
I’ve got nothing to draw you in,
I swear I saw that light in your eyes,
If just for a moment it existed,
Tell me that I was only seeing what I wanted to see,
Say it, you can’t put your trust in me again,
I know I blew it for myself,
But a glimmer of hope is enough to dance with the idea

From a dawning light,
You peer through,
My spine becomes your playground,
And it’s obvious it could kill,
But it brightens and twists further,
The inescapable has tangled me in tight,
Words I give without meaning, are full of fire,
I’m an accidental addition, I’m not the only one,
I try to stop, I try to be who I am inside,
You came to shred my innocuous world apart,
You came to change me,
Now i’ve got a thirst for wayward pursuits,
My quiet mouth,
It must end although I’m aching for it,
You don’t seem too concerned,
if this devastating circumstance unveiled,
I’ll drown in a pool of my own destruction

I can't seem to write anything worth posting at the present moment.. it's been long since I looked at some of my work and haven't thought "wow this is complete and utter crap"... life is at a boring lull right now. .so I have nothing to write about.. hopefully it will all end soon.. and things will start picking up.. until then.. I apologize..