you want me hopeful,
you want me bright and unattainable,
but you know how easily i fold in your arms,
there's a break in motion,
an ache i can't cure,
you're reminding me,
how weightless i used to be,
if we've made it this far,
can i count on progression,
not regression,
and a hand held proud?
will i be right this time?
Will I stay,
In reverie with you,

Happiness sucks! Kuz as long as you're in that state, you can only anticipate the end.

Where it stops and it goes,
Where your heart lies nobody knows,
Couldn’t you love, wouldn’t you give it all?
Just to take the plunge, for the high of the fall,
More than willing, others wait for you,
But in your mind this is a game,
Without realization your intentions cruel,
I don’t want to be the one who gets left behind,
But where the warmth grows and burns your cheeks crimson,
So silly to believe perfection can survive,
I’m waiting for the worst to come,
Render me surprised,
Open my eyes,
To find your feelings never changed.
Will you ever be so sure,
For the first time without confusion and conversion,
Discover satisfaction in one.
~*~
I’m always looking for deeper answers,
Kuz you’re never letting me in on anything,
So much I want to learn,
But if you can’t tell me, still I’ll yearn.
Stop saving up your mystery,
It’s only adding to my misery.
I keep replaying those sweet moments,
Incase they suddenly are stolen away.

And you sway and you turn away,
When I want to give, when I want to relive,
And you disappear when I crave you most,
When you should be here, you’re nowhere near,
The times I wait for your call, I know I won’t hear from you at all,
You take and wrap me in,
It’s fake and I’m seething in my skin,
But I try to bring you back, to fill this vapid crack,
The moments you show me it’s strong enough to last,
Are replaced by emptiness, the bitter cold is approaching fast,
Where will you have me stored when winter sets in?

Here I’ve been
Letting you lead me
Away from desire,
You tread closer to destruction
Further from where I stand,
You want me wandering,
Far from you,
The bliss of my forgotten existence,
Held strong,
Still I hang on,