In your presence,
My body numbs,
How I would like to get closer,
Could all these images in my head
Ever be real?
I do not wish to risk my chance,
And let the excitement of possibility swell,
are the thoughts in your mind stirring?
I’m getting carried away,
Take me in, fold me into you,
We could talk like strangers,
But lay like friends,
How many hearts have you broken?
Seal your confessions,
Fill me with your history,
Why do we keep meeting?
What I wish I knew,
From what your implications say,
I might not be too late,
would you save me from a callous world?
Entering without warning.

how do they find me?
it’s like a repetitious sad sorry song,
how many times will i meet the same person in one life?
make me your prisoner,
break me down until i’m at your mercy,
when will it be on my terms?
learn to let you down,
every time i try and fight,
i surrender under pressure,
wanting you to never let me go,
why do i think time might change your mind?
i’m only abdicating my power,
so tired of forever being underfoot,
why do i have to be everything to everyone?

this is how i say goodbye,
i came apart for you too many times,
i can’t stand beside you,
when you treat me so badly,
when the moment hits, you’re saying what you know i want to hear,
after i’ve given in, you toss me away like I don’t mean a thing,
i’ve seen who you are underneath,
my ears take in the stories miles long,
what you’re doing purposely,
maybe one day you’ll grow up,
show up at my door with an apology,
i feel so stupid, mistaking your lies for truth,
my hopeful heart, deceived by you,
now i’m letting you out from under my skin,
get out, get gone,
i’m going to be the first to break this habit,
burn this bridge, i’ll never cross again,
may life be good to you.

i don’t want to know you,
i wish i could take back all the feelings i wasted on you,
you don’t know what you want,
but to plow through me,
ruin my defenses,
i am vaccinated against you,
try me, see how far you get this time,
you’re every shade of wrong,
i hope you find some answers,
how’d you get so fucked up?
you weren’t that way when I knew you,
you’re not even alive,
what took ahold of you,
made you into this monster?
every time you’re begging me in the dark,
save yourself some dignity,
just leave me out of your life.

Elusive and irreplaceable,
Tender taste of your lips,
Too hazy to recall,
Maybe it’s my mind’s creation,
Maybe it’s loneliness’ urgency,
How much convincing would it take?
To pick up my phone,
What would I say to you,
Without fervency?
Would you deem me forlorn?
Can I wait to discover your thoughts of me?