Should have kept the words inside,
Now you follow my every reverie,
As if it’s full of important memory,
All things I think and feel,
Every emotion I deemed real,
You take it deep within you,
To believe my false interior,
I warned you,
But it sounds too close to truth,
Twisted with desire and wicked deception,
I aim for destruction,
Unconsciously, the ruins trail
Corroding everything I wanted to last,
why do I devise these plans to entice?
All laughter ends in desolation,
Never am I allied with censure,
I didn’t mean to let you break,
I must have been made to be alone,
Cannot let one get by,
These resilient walls,
Assembled to attack,
Constructed to protect,
Have I grown to be this way?
The heavy haunting in my head,
My heart,
You know the laceration,
I think that I’ve lost you,
But I never belonged to you,
Did you engrave it in me to set astray?
Maybe I’m just running,
Did you teach me to conceal til I collapse?
As if an empty lesson could be contained,
Should I be condemned for the mold you left for me.
It’s hard to forgive when I don’t have the answer,
And I’m too afraid to ask.

jumped the imminent gun,
it was bound anyway,
but if you could change,
if i could transform,
maybe happiness could override,
i am one for derision,
fixed my back against foray,
slippery words sliced between,
lips hidden but revealed unapprised,
the implication reigns,
a constant worry I could live without,
mark me selfish,
mark me unjust,
I would have tried for you,
I was not built to bend,
unforeseen constraint,
apology without repentance,
cast your judgement,
mark me mistaken,
mark me iniquitous,
cannot say i'm appeased,
misplaced attempt to convince,
worthy of delay.