2.14.2004

I guess truth comes to the surface eventually,
I saw the other side,
No one’s ever made me feel as worthless,
To laugh when I cry,
I’d give you a piece of my mind,
But I’m bigger than that,
You don’t deserve the breath between the words,
With no apologies,
You watched me walk out the door,
Tears and heartache on my sleeve,
How funny it seemed to you,
A confused expression,
Bewilderment in your eyes,
The answer comes in clearly,
Yeah you didn’t care,
How cold can you be?
Emotionless when I,
Thought that you weren’t hollow inside,
But you hide it well in the way you move towards me,
I tried, I gave you my best,
But the best is never enough,
Just as I accept that I,
Have let you in,
I hope you’re happy with yourself.

2.12.2004

I poured it down my throat,
Your voice brightened every part of me,
Your laugh heightened the rise in me,
I can talk about it now,
You brought inspiration,
When I felt lost, when I felt low,
If I let you go now I might save myself,
But if I give up now I might never know,
What it would have been, what I’ve dreamt I’ve seen,
And what I’ve felt so strong, can’t be wrong,
You can’t be an illusion, leading me astray,
Something so good can’t be true,
I’m so lucky I’ve found you,
Slowly you show me,
What I’ve been hanging on to see,
You’re the focus of my thoughts,
The repetition I can’t break,
A chance I have to take,
Truth is I tried so hard to stay away,
I fought with everything I had, against my will,
But something kept me close and closer still.

2.11.2004

Yeah I know the last few have been EXTREME cheese.. hahha i'm sawry!
He made me believe
I was capable of anything,
I met him in the bright sunlight,
When circumstances were wrong,
It all felt right,
So I continued despite,
All the lies I said to save you,
Little did she know,
Feelings would grow,
When it became too hard to hide,
I would still fiercely deny,
You make me patient,
You give me this certain energy
That makes me crazy,
Talking all night,
Arguing over who’d kick ass in a fight,
I am soaked with sentiment,
Immersed in his world,
And the bliss I can’t resist that I found in his kiss,
The less he said, the more I shed my inhibitions,
The best time of my life,
Were the days we spent laying around, laughing.

This one isn't finished yet, but i've been trying to write it forever... so here she is..
No one could have prepared me for what I’d find,
This dark storm emerging in your eyes,
I’ll never know if you really mean it.
Now that I’ve realized,
Seems trouble comes to break the moment,
I’ve tried to find it somewhere else,
Knowing once I let you in,
You will violate the great we had,
And I’d be no one again,
But you’re the sole possessor.
I’m afraid of you,
What you’re capable of,
How you could split me in two,
And I would breathlessly oblige.
How can I guarantee anything?
How can I weigh the probability?
That we’ll make it.
It’s easy to hide,
Baby I run away,
From everything,
And since I’ve found you I’ve grown stronger,
I have no excuses,
To want to leave,
i’m crawling closer,
inching my way to you,
from behind,
so you won’t know what’s coming,
before you know it’ll be too late,
soon you’ll see what you’ve been missing,
while you’ve been miles away,
I can’t tell you how much I’ve missed you,
I’m scared you might not say the same,
Things have changed,
For the better it seems,
I’m not asking for anything,
I just want you,
And the days that passed,
Your proximity and our chemistry,
the way you didn’t have to say anything,
it’s inexplicable how you made me,
are you feeding me lines?
Tempting me, daring me to fold?
I have found the greatest mystery,
I will see it through,
I have to, I can’t part with you,