Mass update!
Here are heaps that I have left neglected.

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

I am glad to see the moon tonight,
Hung high, alighting hope.

I claim that you are no longer under my skin,
But the falsity is wearing.

I can pretend to no end,
We were transient,
But my armour is lucent.

Your vision adjusted to my patina,
Resilient to my facetious comport.

I absorb everything.
I want what you share, that you refuse me.

Our ligation loosening,
wish you were a propeller.

I must polish my words.

I could exist solely for you,
So why is there this urgency to run?
Am I only frightened by the fall?
Or the wounds I’ll sustain at the end of it all?
I should trust my strength,
Open myself to possibility,
This feels different,
As scribed in the pages of fate,
And written in the stars,
How can one tell?
When the spell cast is blinding,
But you seem irrefutably sincere,
I sense the greatness in us.
Weighted in our discourse and
Ceaseless accolades.
have we inflamed the unknown?
Transpiring beyond our control?
The veracity lies in imminent times.

Saturate me with your delicacy,
I could have you this whole night through,
This splendor shared secretly,
An intimate exchange of enamour,
Patois passionné ingenuous.

Whence the sun sets,
I drink the light before night begets,
Dreaming to your tenor,
Beating thoughts in sync
our multitudinous strings,
recollecting the romance in rain,
your clairvoyance catching the lark in me,
transuding,
treading your toreutics.

10 minutes away,
from old age,
life is vastly different than I thought it would be,
I’m alive, I’m thriving,
What I mean to be,
All those things I imagined,
Aren’t so out of reach,
Could this feeling be suspended forever?
I’d hate for the shuffle to stir it,
Have it leap from my hands.

This distressing stagnancy,
I’ve let my mind distend with quixotic thoughts of you,
Make an art of articulating your adoration,
I’ll absorb it in any form,

I have been chasing reason,
Seems to run since meeting you,
Contented by your consistency,
Keep the compliments coming,
I’ll fall farther with you,
You will love me,
Deeper than any other,
Our kiss will make the world catch fire.

Hopelessly, desperately
I float, ascending to the stars,
Never so pure a brilliant feeling shone,
Blinding the rest,
Blotting out traces of dark,
We pour ourselves into novels exchanged,
Daily, consistent as dialogue,
Grounded so heavily, impossible to be exhumed.

Salivating with hunger for your subsequent epistle,
Infuse your message with affection,
Give me something to go on,
Verify my theory.
It’s too soon for me to be running up walls,
But the madness has reached my blood.
An immaculate correlation, never imagined as serene as it has been.
I am sickeningly smitten.

Is it the implausibility?
Addicted to your words,
Comfortable with the consistency,
Retraction would rupture me.
Shameful to admit your cavernous position.
You’ve generated this listless longing.
Starving me for more.

I’m waiting for you to come around,
Like it was before but I know the feelings intensified,
It seems you know just when I’m needing you most,
Always there to say the right things just when I’m losing hope,
Or when I start to lose interest,
Keeping me tied on,
No chance of escape,
I’m sick of taking your fair weather love
Whenever you call, asking me to,
How you lead me one way and leave,
I fill this void of yours while mine runs deeper,
Throw yourself into me and run after I react,
So I have to wait until you give me the go ahead,
Can’t we just coincide,
Collapse at the same time,
I’m only playing along to please you,
If you resurfaced at this moment,
You might catch me weakened,
I’m beckoning you,
Need you next to me,
I’m letting my barrier down,
Opening up to the idea,
Another night without you is torture,
It’s not fair to push me aside,
When you see me in this state.

When words disappear
I have nothing to say to you now,
You’re losing the only chance you’ll ever get,
You don’t seem worried,
So I’ll close this door I left ajar,
Kuz I can do better,
Perhaps you sense its loneliness,
Throwing rocks at your window,
All the shit I put up with doesn’t mean much to you,
If you don’t care then why should i?
You’d have to make this worth my wasted while,
It would take more effort than you’d care to impart,
So stay out of sight,
Let my anger settle,


After I kissed you,
I lost my place,
I guess you saw it coming,
But you didn’t try to stop me.

I’m leaving, leaving,
I won’t be honest and ruin you,
This uneasy situation,
You’ve been plowing me through,
His insolent maundering,
Making me the defect,
Always fault the father, unless he is you,
This obstinate presence,
We’re unable to exorcise.
You married an ignorant mendacious man,
He’s a tyranny I cannot obliterate,
Releasing disconcerting electrons,
You seem to overlook and grasp tightly to.
What compels you to stay?
To obey his manipulative coercion,
Speaking down to you.
With negated love and happiness,
Your guilt-ridden conscience
And trepidation rooted in your feet.

Make my heart pound,
Then my blood boil,
It’s push and pull,

An abrupt stop,
In this surge of feelings,

Why would you conceal,
What’s bound to be revealed?
Was I deceived? Did I misread?

Is there any purpose in supposition?
Or is this wasted time?

Intuition speaks candor,
My agonizing flummox echoes at volumes,
ears can’t detect.

Don’t shelve your stars,
Time will find you when you’re ready,
We’re all set to fall,
It never happens in anticipation,
I’ve wondered and waited too long,
I know it will catch me when my eyes are closed.

Don’t pack it in,
Give up just yet,
Fate works in mysterious ways,
Bide your time,
Instil faith,
you’re worth it,
Imbue joie de vivre,

I have learned a lesson,
Solitude bleeds you dry,
All you’ll find is sterility,

In opportune,
Your parapet appears.

You revived me,
Brought hope to light,
You turned a bad day bright,
Surprising me with your interest,
How can a distance be made shorter,
when there is an ocean in between?
The hours expired hastily,
Where can this liasion lead?
How can we stay connected?

Maybe you were sent as a sign,
But I’m hooked and I can’t quit relinquishing,
Revel in our insatiable conversation,
The ease in which you lifted me,
Rescuing me from obstacles too big to climb,
A magnificent mien,
I just drowned in,
The inexplicable chemical combustion,
That incited us.
I hope we meet again.

I don’t like these floating feelings,
Your embrace soaked with unattainable affection,
My perplexity,
Your determination to confound,
Where do I stand?
What character are you considering me for?
All these inclinations indicating,
The unfathomable,
I become a fixture,
In your unravelling,
But what unfastens you?
Silence falls between meetings,
I will see you by fates appointment.

Allowing thoughts to fester,
Emotions to sit unsettled,
If you’d ask, would I comply?
A friendship drunk on suffocated desire,
Or a deceiving smokescreen,
Commitment bound by love,
That you will not break,
Nor will you defend,
As you obscure my mind with ambiguity.

Removed myself from memory’s way,
All the sites we sunk into,

I’ve pushed all my emotions to the farthest reaches,
Stronger without knowing of your existence,

But at the mention of your name,
I falter, I fold,

Aware of how little I can do,
To reach you,

Like a spell that I’ve been put under,
Enduring only for you.