5.15.2004

Nice girls always finish last,
no word of lie,
i'm tired of standing in the shadows,
being picked last, left alone,
bad luck will follow me wherever I go - near or far.
i'm the only one who's shrouded in silence, bitterness.
not desired, powerless, repelling,
that's just me in this permanent rut,
I can't rise above it,
watching those around me admired.
I thought i'd overcome this dry spell,
but i'm convinced i'm hopeless,
knowing what I want will never be an option,
how can anything change my mind?
I'm so deep down in here,
up to my knees in despair.
I wear my shell inside out.
What’s holding you back,
If you seemed so sure before,
Now you’re second guessing
how much hold you have on me.
If I’ve burned you once before,
This may be your last chance,
The truth is you’re just filling time,
Wrapped in fraudulent feeling,
Should you be so self righteous?