I found myself in a world so tainted,
I couldn’t be rescued,
Giving up on optimism,
How small a change could start,
Falling in love with a stranger,
Whose eyes met mine,
With a smile to follow.
Bringing me, the notion of possibility,
And how I could spend these days,
if only we convened.
Compelled to return the site of our connection,
I can’t live just knowing you’re alive,
Is this the face of fate?
Or am I just drawn to the unknown?
Feeling that time is wasted,
when I’m not where you are,
ask me my name,
so I’ll learn more than your demeanor,
beyond your entrancing exterior,
memorized in my mind,
I’ve never been so shaken.

One weary week is passing,
I find promise unraveling this evening,
Finally the dark is rising,
Arm yourself with a smile,
There is no need to lay down dormant,
And obliterate hope,
I am intact and I am alive,
Follow in foot,
“Don’t say it,” she said.
“Put away your prescience,
I’d rather drown in despondency.”
Words of woe, hearts I cannot sew back together,
But I’ll gather the pieces.

I'm not sure this one is finished yet, but here's what I have so far!

It’s not fair,
How you’ve kept me here,
Encased in this glass,
Where you can watch,
But far from my eyes,
I cannot catch you,
As desperate as I am to,
Out of my hands,
I am patiently pacing,
Is my existence still calamitous?
I tend to be a wind,
That disaster rides in,

In pursuit of a path,
That may lead us back,
Consulting the constellations,
For their sagacious advice,
Heed their warning,
“Don’t let this pragmatic world ruin you”

Hello hello! I hope this hasn't been previously posted, I just found this poem in a notebook and thought I would put it up since I haven't been writing much lately!

A hopeful lie,
meticulous and sly,
departing sanity,
embracing empathy,
a sad solid plot,
to drive a pair to part,
bring a loaded past to light,
reiterate me into sight,
you cannot look beyond,
what lines the surface.

I was deluded,
When it came to you,
Hallucinated a fragmentary change,
you shook me awake before I fell fast asleep,
Finally the us is over,
Weakness won’t let me slip again,
What I see,
Is a part of what I don’t want to be,
a substitute was what I withdrew,
with each inebriated kiss I stole from you.

Caught in a corner,
With impressing inspiration,
You fill me with an urgency,
I flourish like a flame,
With wild ideas attainable,
There is no productivity without pain,
You are a distant fraction of focus,
A transitory transition,
Befriending ambition,
To climb higher than you expected me,
The success I suspect in each step.

I thought I knew everything,
When I was young,
I had you and gave you up so easily,
Didn’t know what I was setting free,
Years later I come to my senses,
Suddenly I felt what I’d been missing,
Once you were out of sight,
I could never have you the way I had,
The impact of losing you,
Memories of us so vivid and bright,
Make it hard to swallow,
I need your voice,
I need your arms around me,
I can’t stand up without you,

Would you leave her if you knew?
All these ceaseless feelings that burn for you,
Isn’t this what you always wanted?
I still have a home in your heart,
Every reason I can find leaves me with hope to hold onto,
Why did you give up fighting?
Persistence pays off too late,
Now I’m waiting,
For a day that may never come,
When you realize I was the one.

Answers are emerging,
i've played out every ending,
choose our demise or resurrection,
we died long ago.

Don't speak,
it's better that I do not hear,
scrapings from the bottom of your heart,
slaughtering the last shred of hope I hold,
I am not ready to let you go,
an honest love realized much too late,
bears no relevence to you any more,
why would her lips so eagerly ask?
questions from ancient lives,
worries that plagued your mind,
why do they concern you still?
I cannot free providence,
if it begets resurgence,
all ill that escaped my mouth,
my feet did never follow.
clumsy words that misled,
a harrowing tale with no truth,
that gave you impetus for indolence.
Conditioned to lose,
I send my message to you.

I just discovered this old poem in my closet today. I must've written it a long time ago. Here it is.

We've been running smoothly with some starts and stops,
my head hasn't been hectic lately,
like a clear day, I have no thoughts but you,
when i'm seething you soothe me,
there's no love like i've found in you,
it's unexplainable,
thought I was untamable,
but I conformed to suit you in any way you please,
unbound, ready for release,
stunning like the stars,
you're catching me,
I willingly, forget my identity,
stake my claim under your frame,
live like I could die,
swallow my apathy,
how clever a disguise to hide what's inside,
but I let it bleed for you to see,
those stolen moments where I recall,
the first striking revelation,
the need for you in me.

I just deleted at least eight months of writing.. if anyone has any pieces of my book please send them to me! :(

Love means letting go,
It’s because what I feel is so real,
I will sacrifice for your happy heart,
I hope you’re pleased,
With the strength that it took,
Remember me in your next life,
something pure and wonderful,
We had that thrived inside,
Even apart,
While you sleep,
I awake and write,
Passages of memories,
These silent scenes,
Inciting pain and passion,
Free to create any conclusion,
But none as tragic as the truth

Complacency is dulling,
I am numb,
Haven’t grabbed a hold of emotion,
This isn’t really living,
Just a state of observation,
While the world blurs by,
In the center, watching the rain coming down,
Around me,
Tasteless, my nerves never were enabled,
I’ve been waiting for a moment to meet me,
Standing in this place, static in the sand,
I should bid riddance to this invisible force,
That’s suppressing the essence of me,

Could you lend me your sanity,
To fix these jagged holes,
I’ve left them unkempt for too long.

This is not okay,
it’s impossible to unravel,
What’s keeping me glued to the ground,
I can’t move,
Something is pressing me down,
I feel air escaping,
Out of my lungs,
On strike from life,
a much needed hiatus,
please pick me up,
unfold this heap of me,
I can’t break out,

With these tears may a garden grow,
Lighten my load,
Line life with a pretty row,
And with an ambient sound,

Lost my luster,
Giving into your oppression,
Now I’m sick with regret,
A case unkind,
Too many wrongs you have to right,
I’ll make it work
Against your will,

I applaud your assault,
Look at how it flattened me,
Was that the idea?
I started off so strong,
You should have realized,
I am made of diffidence,
Bared by your reticence,

This solemn strain that I have gained,
Loosens knots that I fought to keep tied.

Everything goes wrong,
Don’t say it,
Better luck next time,
Luck is a just excuse,
My tears have dried,
But I’m not calm inside,
i will crawl back into bed,
and stay until somebody drags me out,
when I hear your voice,
i know it's safe to rise from beneath the covers,
if you really cared you'd inquire,
and mop my heart up off the floor,
I tried to be reborn,
but the results just ended up the same,
send me off to the arms of anyone who'd take me,
easier than letting guilt eat away,
what have i become?
this fallen soldier,
in the battle of I against me.

i watched you fall,
and waste it all,
thought love was different,
meant to fill the hole,
but i see it's digging deeper,
creating a place for you to crawl into,
in disbelief, an end to your fake fairytale,
image is more important than the walls crumbling within.

I’ll stay up tonight,
Let you unbind my mind,
I’ve been playing scenes of you and I,
Over in my head,
When it’s lost will I know it?
Seems we’re traveling nowhere,
At the sight of you,
Losing breath, taken by a tremble,
Stronger than the first time,
I laid eyes upon you,
Still we won’t kill the space between,
How much sense are we making?

how these lacerations slip through your teeth,
what I hate in me I see in you,
this is how I nurse my wounds,
how can I change the way I feel inside?
I want to forget my existence, erase the foot prints i've made,
nothing is good, blinder is better,
wind me tight, for I am close to unraveling,
brace yourself,
a sight for pitiful eyes,
hunting myself with little resistence,
all these filthy thoughts,
you can't stop me,
when you say it,
almost giving yourself away,
never more than just a taste,
so keep your distance

i want to go,
where the broken girls go,
to feel beautiful,
where i'm living without all these vacillations,
just when I have things figured out,
you untie my pretensions with your intrinsic opposition.

I don’t know you like I used to,
As bad as I want to believe,
It just cannot be true,
You and me,
never meant to be,
I can’t hold on to you,
And spend my life waiting,
a break to alleviate the desolation I’ve sunk into,
a day that will not dawn,
you would be here if you wanted to,
I can’t harbor false hope that undying feelings slowly swell in you,
I push and I push until i find myself convinced of possibility,
I’ll let it die tonight,
Shed this skin I’ve spent too long in.

Have you exceeded your fill?
When will we hit overkill?
This emerging pause,
How do you decide?
I asked for answers,
But can’t find clarity,
this trial might expire,
will we breathe life into our desires?
afraid to implode,
will I receive you well?
Awake with you beside me?
Are our conversations growing tired?
When will you dispose of me?
The more it drags on,
The longer I’m apart from myself,
Now beguiled,
When will our destruction set in?
I am holding hope so high for you and I,
Once started impossible to stop,
Derail me, let us collide,
With two feet in,
Who will draw back first?
Your operative mouth,
Inciting images my mind impounds.