An abrupt secret slipped,
Wasn’t quite surprised,
Pushed to the back of my mind and it was gone,
Away from sight until you appeared,
I laughed off the accused,
But I kept truth to myself,
A smile inside when you were near,
Knowing how silent it should be,
Even as I felt it, knew it would devastate,
You can’t be right for me,
Even if I sense it,
It would decay,
Damaged hearts stay,
I could never wound you that way,

I want to be the one,
to preclude your obliteration,
laying beside you,
wishing you’d be the first to move,
how would I assess it,
if it’s the last thing I need,
but pungently longed for,

why does this exist?
Bounded by your emitting heat.
Readily weakened into submission
But inhibition always follows,
Can’t see past what keeps me hesitating.